Wednesday, December 25, 2013

My head slumps, deep in thought.
     I notice her arrival.

Cool air, from a closing door,
     Rakes over my burning face.

I feel rancor, and dismay.
     Has she come to confront me?

To question what I had done;
     Why do I feel guilty?

She sits next to me,
     Putting her hand onto mine.

Her coolness melds with my heated state.
     I began to tremble, as if a fever is consuming me.

As I turn to respond to her unspoken question,
     She places her hand over my lips,
          Silencing me.

"We are not perfect, you and I,"
      She whispers.
          "I love you, because, you are flawed".

Taking my head in her hands,
     She kisses me passionately.

"Let's go home," she quietly murmurs.
     "Our bed is cold, and,
          our love needs to be renewed."



Wherein
     do your thoughts go
          as you lay between the cool sheets?

What
     flickers across your mind
          of fleeting still-life and animated images?

What
     fills your soul
           with passion, love and tenderness?

In
     that place,
          your are alone, but, not lonely.

How
     do I touch you,
          there?


Sometimes,
     I sense your thoughts
     Before you are ready to speak.

Sometimes,
     I speak
          Before you have formed your thoughts.

Now,
     I realize,
          That silence speaks more eloquently.

Wait,
     pause, listen...reflect.....
In that moment, knowing,
     you are ready.
You will know.

Allowing love in,
     allowing love out.
Keeping yourself whole.

Dancing,
     ready for spring's blossoms.

In that moment, knowing.
     Keep yourself whole.

You are the spring blossom.
     Your bliss
           creates the wonder.
Keeping yourself whole.


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

WeeHouse: An Alternative Eco-Friendly Architectural Firm


WeeHouse

Another architectural firm that builds modular, eco-friendly homes that can be tailored to individual needs and sites.  More information here:  http://www.weehouse.com/weeprocess/


DUST...an innovative rammed earth, eco-friendly architectural design firm


Tucson Mountain Retreat -- DUST

Rammed earth construction nestled among the Saguaro cacti and rugged landscape.  More information can be found here:  http://www.dustdb.com


Tuesday, December 17, 2013

A Posse ad Esse

"From being possible to being actual"


My journey accelerates, and in 2014, I will advance confidently in the direction of my dreams, and endeavor to live the life I imagine.  My success will exceed my expectations.





To the one I love....

I have forgotten for how long now, 
     I have fallen asleep, 
     knowing you will be there tomorrow.
It influences the way I breathe, 
     and drift into dreams.
And I am here, 
     listening to you breathe, 
     lying beside me in the night light.
I am here, 
     looking at you, 
     amazed at your trust in sleep, in love, in me.
I want to wake you, 
     and tell you what you mean to me.


Friday, December 13, 2013

Studio art...

Talented artist and blogger:  http://kathleen-coy.blogspot.com/


Legal Nomads: Where Culture, Food and Travel Intersect

I have been following this site for nearly a year.  Fascinating information on everything food in small out of the way food stalls and street vendors in far flung Southeast Asia, South Asia and Africa.  Great photography and stimulating reading on everyday usages of food items found locally.  http://www.legalnomads.com/


Nature Photography for Beginners

For those of you who enjoy photography or need additional hints on photographing nature, check out this blog:  http://christhephotog.blogspot.com/ 


Thursday, December 12, 2013

Awakening...

My fear sits, in all it's beauty on the window sill

In the form of a feather.

Simple and there.

Suddenly, I treasure the light she brings me

And, heart open, instead of turning away, I meet her.

So vibrant, there for me to teach me all she knows.

Now earthly things step back into shadows, shades slipping into darkness.

The eye does not see, but the heart knows.

You must look away to understand.

Let it go.

Now there is only the window, and your breath upon it.

Life outside stands in silken silence.

Wrapping tree arms around you, let it go.

Now, there is only, Now.


Day sliding into evening...

I have always lived by the ocean.

Known these damp days when fog slips up the rivers

And creeps between the trees as we move like apparitions of the heavy sky.

Sometimes at sunset, fog slides back to the sea.

I hurry away, alone, as if to some hidden pleasure, and wait

Scarcely breathing pinned between earth and naked sky,

For the passing of the sun.

I crave this drama, this embrace, this light

Which flares then fades

Into the slow deep breath of evening.




You are not a burden...

I do want to be a burden on my loved ones, just as I want them to be a burden on me.  It's called looking after each other.

Obviously, I know we are all terrified of the indignity of dying, and of being ill generally. Having someone cleanup our mess, put up with our incoherent ramblings and mood swings. It threatens our cherished sense of personal space and autonomy.

But this is where the model of individual determination breaks down. For it is when we are this vulnerable that we have little choice but to allow ourselves to be loved and cared for.

We do not form temporary alliances with each other for short-term mutual advantage. My existence is fundamentally bound up with yours. Of course, I will hold your hand in the long hours of the night. Be quiet about being a burden, I love you. This is what it means to love you.

Surely, there something extraordinarily beautiful about all of this.




Poetry...Expressions

Thoughtful poetry site...http://neveringpoetry.blogspot.com/


KIssssing....

Love across time, as seen in found, restored old photographs:  http://kissssing.blogspot.com/


A Manifesto....


Chubby Vegetarian

Another excellent blog on vegetarian food:  http://chubbyvegetarian.blogspot.com/


Vegan Dad

Everything fun about being a Vegan Dad: http://vegandad.blogspot.com/


Meditation and Mindfulness...

Recommendations on dealing with anxiety and depression through meditation...

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/let-it-be-using-mindfulness-to-overcome-anxiety-depression/


Tranquility in the Maldives...


Somewhere there is truth...

To dance upon the midnight wind,
moonbeams in her hair.
Dreaming without a care.


Floating above the fractured land,
on flames of spectral fire.
Flirting with starlit sky,
drenched in heaven’s sweet desire.


She’s sister of the golden sun,
daughter of the vast unknown.
Mother to the earth itself, 
forever time has been her throne.


Mystic is the heart and soul, 
as are mysterious her eyes.
Reading future’s sordid truths,
between the sorrow and the lies.


The Beginning of the Journey...

Something special occurred this past week. You were there…sort of…well, I am getting ahead of myself.

I dreamt I was strolling down a sunlit street with largeoverhanging branched trees providing dappled sunlight and shadeA light breeze tasseled my hair, and the scent of freshly mown grass mingled with fragrances from jasmine, roses and fruit trees. As I walked by neatly trimmed lawns fronting cottages of wood, stone and brick, I could hear children laughing, people talking with their neighbors and dogs barking. When I turned to see where the noises came from, strangely, there was no one there.

Block after block I walked; finally, I turned down a cul-de-sac and approached a home. It was a beautifully built craftsman with a slate tile roof, brown shingled sides, and deep, wide porch with a gravel walkway leading to broadgrey lintel stone steps.  The xeriscape garden combined bursts of red, lilac and golden orange flowers with blue-grey succulents draping over tumbled stones and small boulders.

I climbed the steps onto the broad planked wooden porch. At one end a two-seat swing rocked gently back and forth with the wind. At the other end were two large wicker chairs with deep foam filled cushions that, once sat upon, would certainly swallow whomever sat down. I noticed the front door was much larger than normal – nearly eight feet tall. In the door’s center was a stain glass window depicting, what? It was difficult to discern the display: was it multi-colored flowers reaching toward the sun, or a woman, mermaid, or nymph reaching for the stars or moon?  I could not tell. The glass was cool to the touch as I peered through the door.

Suddenly, the door swung open; I stepped back, not sure of what I had done or what would happen next. However, there was no one there. 

I stepped into the entryway. Before me was a hallway leading to several rooms and wooden stairway leading to the next floor. I explored each room on the first and second floors. As I moved from room to room I could hear a child laughing, a woman humming, a father reading to a child. And, just as before, when I turned to look there was no one there.

Were they ghosts from a pleasant past, or harbinger of future happy times? An unsolved mystery. Finally, I came to another stairway leading to the top floor. As I ascended, I realized this was the master suite with windows on all four sides, deep closets and a large master bath with a modern claw-footed tub beneath a rainforest shower. Everything was serene and quiet, with a light breeze circulating through open windows.

I realized I was tired from my journey.

Sitting down in the middle of the room, I began to breathe, taking deeper breaths, embracing the sunlight and the light breeze. The background noise lowered to a low buzz, a deep reverberating sound that seemed to penetrate everywhere. I felt completely calm and relaxed.

Then, quietly, and slowly rising in volume, I heard a voice saying, “Look at me, look at me”. I did not recognize the voice. Slowly, I turned my head to the right, and there was this large, chocolate brown cat sitting in the doorway. Its tail switched back and forth…one, two…one, two…swish…swish. The sound reminded me of wind-blown grains of sand sliding down a dune, or the sound I hear, when sailing at night, as the waves surf under the stern of the sailboat.

The cat rose and began to circle towards me. It stopped directly in front of me wrapping its tail around its frontpaws. The cat’s head rocked left then right, examining me. Slowly, it stood, stretched and crawled into my lap, curling up and began purring. As I began to caress the cat, iturned, looking directly into my face, and said, “Welcome home, Jon Michael. Our journey has begun.”

I felt this wave of contentment; joy and completeness rush through my bodyIt was your voice!


Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Soft Bonds of Love

The soft bonds of love are indifferent to life and death.

They hold through time -- yesterday's love

Is part of today's, and the confidence

In tomorrow's love is also part of today's.


And when one dies, the memory lives in the other,

Warm and breathing.


And when both die, somewhere love remains,

Indestructible and eternal,

Enriching all of the universe by the mere fact

That it once existed.


Near the sea

Do not write love poems near the sea

She will hear in the scratch of pens on paper

The rhythms of rocking bodies

The sound of blood rushing to lips

The quick breathy hiss as pupils dilate

And, especially,

Do not write love poems in the sand by the sea

Neither with salt-whitened twigs or backs

But with knees sincere in composition

And eyes cast down

To see the grains of sand spread their filaments of need,

For, I tell you,

On the night of the new moon,

She is an ocean of desire

Her kiss deeper than the sky.


Early morning reverie...

Cocooned beneath a warm blanket

Heads resting on down pillows

Each gazing in the open windows of our souls

Warm breathe co-mingling

Warm, wet lips forming a succulent smile

Now firmly pressed against mine

Warm tongues dance

Ripe breasts smothered against my chest

My warm hand caressing your cool ass

Warm legs entwined

My manhood hot and hard

Yearning to enter your warm secret place.


Passages...

I do not know what it is about you

That makes my grey days turn brilliant blue.

You opened a door

     That was closed to me.

I do not know what it is about you

     That stirs me to write these

     words so true.

For the pain of my past

     has eased at last.


Evolving....

I thought the earth remembered me,
she took me back so tenderly,
arranging her dark skirts, her pockets full of lichens and seeds.
I slept as never before, a stone on the riverbed,
nothing between me and the white fire of stars
but my thoughts, 
and they floated light as moths,
among the branches of the perfect trees.
All night
I heard the small kingdom breathing around me,
the insects, and the birds who do their work in the darkness.
All night
I rose and fell, as if in water
grappling
with a luminous doom.
By morning,
I had vanished at least
a dozen times
into something better.


Never Ending Story: Part 5 -- The Next Generation

He realized the old legend was true: one out of every million octopi have the potential to evolve into kraken.  All have failed; until now. A kraken -- a mighty octopus as big as a sailing vessel.  The diver realizing what was happening, let go, and tried to swim away. The kraken threw the diver across the pier, and the diver crumpled to the ground. The kraken rose up over the remaining crowds, towering thirty, no, forty feet above them. He yanked on the tethered line and it broke freeing him from the spear.  He rushed up the pier scattering people, smashed the post and freed the mermaid. Gently, he cradled her in his tentacles, and dove into the channel, swimming quickly toward the sea.  

Arrows and spears rained down him, most missing with a few hitting their target, and deeply wounding him. He ignored the pain, and dove further into the dark seas leaving a trail of ink and blood. Finally, where no man could go, he stopped.  He looked down at the mermaid.  Her colors had returned and she glowed: indigo blue, teal, pink and red. She gently caressed him and began to dress his wounds. As she tended to him she sang a song explaining why the Marquesas’ Islanders revere the octopus -- the octopus represents freedom and regeneration. Freedom to move effortlessly through their environment and establish and reestablish new homes; regeneration because when they lose an appendage or kin, their limb is regrown and new family members are born.

The mermaid and the octopus continued their journey deep into the ocean. No one ever saw them again; no one knows where they went. And, even today, the legend of the kraken is believed to be a myth.

“Pop-O”, cried out one of the little children.  “Pop-O, what happened to the mermaid and the octopus? Where did they go? Are they safe? Will the octopus recover from his wounds?” the young child began to cry silently. Pop-O reached down and picked up his great – granddaughter, held her gently his arms, and began to rock her slowly. As he soothed her tears, he marveled at her long blonde hair and dark green eyes. 'Could she be the one?', he thought silently. He glanced at the woman he loved, and she nodded approvingly, her blond and grey hair swaying gently.

“Shush, shush, little one. We will never know the answers to all your questions.  However, we do know love is stronger than any other emotion, and has no bounds, no limits. It lasts through many lifetimes and blooms when the conditions are right.  Do not fear for the octopus and mermaid. Wherever they are, they are safe and are living peacefully together, he gently whispered to her and the other children gathered at his feet.

Pop-O then handed the child to his granddaughter and turned to look at the woman he loved. She was wearing her favorite outfit -- blue indigo skirt, teal green sweater and a reddish pink shawl.  She had aged as he had; however, he only saw her aura of beauty, grace and serenity. Gently, with his arm bearing the scars of a violent struggle from a long time ago, he pulled her reddish pink shawl over her teal sweater clad shoulders. A chill was in the air. Taking her hand, they said goodbye to the children, turned and slowly walked down the lane. As night fell, and the stars shown brightly in the sky, they disappeared from sight.

To Be Continued

Never Ending Story: Part 4 -- The Battle

Slowly, he spiraled down to the channel bottom; the embedded spear tied by a line to the spear gun dragged him further. He quickly reoriented himself, and grabbed the line with several tentacles. Using his propulsion, he slowed the descent to a stop.  The spear had passed nearly through his tentacle. If he could push further through it would fall out on the other side. Then he could break the line.  However, the diver had other plans. He had wrapped the spear gun around an anchor, and now was swimming directly toward the octopus with a sharp knife in each of his hands. Instinctively, the octopus ejected a cloud of ink which engulfed him and the diver. Pushing with one tentacle, he dislodged the spear. His blood further colored the water; however, he was fighting for survival. The diver and the octopus feinted and jabbed at each other. The diver scored several gashes on the octopus’ tentacles, one which cut deep and bled ferociously.

All his training he received in the past, all the stories of great battles energized him, and he quickly lashed out at the diver grabbing one arm, then the next.  He was beginning to feel his anger rise in him. The pain his kind had received from men, the slaughter of kin, the constant need to migrate to safer waters…all began to give him strength.


Their battle continued unabated, and their thrashings had caught the attention of the crowd. As they both surfaced, screams from the crowd arose, and the crowds ran away as quickly as possible.  It was then that he heard the song, the lyrics had no meaning. But the music was calling to him to rise and become his true self. Deep within his soul, an image began to form. The image sang out to him, calling to him to rise and become his true self. Then, realized he the images he had dreamt about the previous nights were his ancestors calling to him, awakening him. He realized he was descended from a mermaid and a kraken! 

Slowly, then more quickly, he felt his body changing.  

Never Ending Story: Part 3 -- A Challenge

He was astonished to see hundreds of men and women talking, pointing and gesturing at something standing alone in the middle of pier. A continuous spray of water doused whatever was there. What was it? Why the need for water? He was too far from the pier to clearly see what was occurring. To move closer would put him in endanger. But he must move closer.  He pushed his fear away and drifted closer.
He could the feel the pull the song had on him.  He could almost decipher the lyrics, and the raw emotion pulled at his heart and his spirit. What was causing this? He had never experienced this feeling. It was as if his spirituality was being reopened, tested and challenged.  He felt he was being asked to do something, but, what?

As he got closer, he could vaguely make out some creature standing, no, tied to a post.  Its colors were deep indigo blue, with shades of teal, soft reds and pinks. The colors faded when water drained from its body, however, their bright hues instantly returned where the seawater splashed. Long hair cascaded down over soft shoulders.  Oh my, it is not possible, he thought; it was the long storied and never seen creature – a mermaid!!


A-a-aughh, he felt a sharp pain in one of his tentacles. The diver had returned, and he was being pulled down to the channel bottom by the embedded spear!

Never Ending Story: Part 2 -- A Vision

Traveling at night provided the octopus the cover of darkness to keep him hidden from predators. During daylight, he hid in crannies within the reef and restlessly slept. His dreams were unsettled; the recurring lyric continued to stir up memories which briefly flashed and disappeared. He could not connect the images with any specific memory. And, yet, each image seemed familiar, seemed to come from some shared distant past. It was exhausting to focus on the images, and he fell into a deep untroubled sleep.

As he approached the shore, the shallower water provided him less protection. And the water was tainted with men spoil – debris, oil, dead sea life and a smell that tasted of metal, blood and unsanitary conditions. Hiding was more difficult, and the constant boat traffic overhead stirred up the lifeless bottom. He felt unclean, and his fears began to rise.  He found an abandoned pier; its collapsed timbers provided some protection.  He was not far from the bright lights and the song was very strong. Its vibrations tingled across his body. So familiar, so heart-warming, and yet it could not be placed.

Suddenly, an apparition appeared! A diver was gliding along the sea bottom, spearfish gun in hand, head turning from side to side, seeking prey. The octopus coiled up as tightly as possible, his body assuming the colors of the background. Controlling his breathing he awaited the diver’s approach. The diver stopped and looked straight at the octopus. His gaze was unrelenting.  Then, he slowly turned away and swam farther down the coastline. The octopus remained stationery; he knows predators wait for movement and attack quickly. This waiting game is usually won by the octopus; this time he prevailed again.

Soon, it would be dark, and the octopus will move closer to the bright lights and source of the song. Resting deep beneath the pier, he calmed himself, pushing his fears away and rested.  He felt these next steps will be the most challenging of his life. His family history spoke of strong leaders who guided the family through many challenges and dangers. Was this his moment?
He had heard stories about his grandfather and other relatives who traveled great distances, overcoming horrific odds and dangers, to populate new reefs and establish new lives. They had fought battles with other sea creatures, tended their family needs, dressed their wounds and rebuilt their lives wherever they could find shelter. He dwelt on the stories and learnings he had been taught. Briefly, an image begins to arise in his memory – a feminine creature.  A long storied and never seen creature.


No, that was a figment of his imagination and part of stories created by his ancestors to explain phenomena that could not be explained.  He quickly pushed the image from his mind, and began to prepare for the next leg of his journey. Slowly, he unraveled and slide silently across the channel’s bottom, moving around anchors and debris and moving up the channel. The noise rose higher and higher, and the song continued.  However, there were periods where it stopped – he wondered why.  Carefully, he surfaced across the channel and viewed the pier where everyone was gathered.

Never Ending Story: Part 1: The Beginning

Gather around children, and let me tell you an endless story of bravery and courage, love and hope, danger and treachery, happiness and despair and the timeless link among love, forgiveness and spirituality.

…Late at night, an octopus lie sleeping dreaming of warm tropical seas, lightly dancing across pink coral reefs, capturing small fish to eat and mingling with his kin, young and old. However, these dreams always ended abruptly, for, as long as he can remember, dark shadows appeared overhead. Nets and spears rained down on his kin, tearing, capturing and lifting them upwards and into the dark shadows. For centuries, he and his family were persecuted and those taken never returned again.

He awoke and moved to the edge of his cranny nook and gazed into the abyss. Listening quietly to the water currents as they spread vibrations and the never-ending background of undersea noise that indicated abundant life existed far from human eyes. Ever so faintly, there could be heard, now and then, an unusual sound…a song, a lyric, possibly a lament. Distantly, in his memory, he had heard such a song. But where, when?

And, there were other large, harsh noises that coincided with this faint cry. He moved cautiously forward looking for any possible predators. Seeing none, he slowly glided upward to the sea’s surface. It was still dark, and the moon was covered by clouds providing him additional camouflage. On the horizon, he could see bright lights, and sensed many boats converging at that point. And the song was even stronger now, ebbing and flowing, rising and falling…sensing sadness, love, despair and, yet, hope, the lyric pierced his heart. A wave of unfamiliar emotion swept over him, and he realized he must go to the light. Swallowing his fear of men, he glided to the bottom of the sea and moved forward.

Stillness...

"Water becomes clear through stillness. How can I become still? By flowing with the stream." -- Lao-tzu

A Lover's Thought...

Your voice soothes me. Where your hands touch me, burn. As I await the slightest stir of your body, I know the lightest caress will ignite us and set us free.


A Question

Are not all Facts...Dreams as soon as we embrace Now.